Kindness counts
Like the rose, the gardenia is such a graceful flower. Somehow with the gardenia, I also feel a strong geometric pattern in its petals - they almost seem to radiate out from their center like a spiral. I couldn’t help but FEEL the gentleness of each of the petals as I made this drawing.
At the time I made this drawing, I was recovering from a bad cold. There is really nothing worse than when your body weakens. Even if it is temporary, the time you spend feeling sick and recovering is so draining. I think I even had to take a break from the 100 day project because I had no energy in me to work in any way.
I made this drawing on my first day back into the studio - it was day 78 of my 100 day project. And it was hard to return, to sit in front of a blank sheet of paper and to try to start drawing again. I felt this urge to give up and not continue the project. It really felt like I had no energy left to go on. But somehow, I started outlining one gentle petal after another radiating from the center and moving outward. And with each petal, I felt a gentleness radiating out from myself. And by the time I was done, I knew I could draw again, to live again for another day of this project and in my life as a whole.
I guess the lesson for me here was that there is a power in gentleness and kindness - whether it is directed toward yourself or others, I really believe one kind act after another has the power to replenish the energy we need to continue on with our lives and our work. To keep doing the work we must do. To keep supporting others to do the work they must do too.